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[21 Dec 2005|03:01pm]
Um, I really know how to be a dumb girl.
Why do you talk to me anyway.
2 are so in love-can't let go-

[12 Dec 2005|08:43pm]
[ mood | cold ]

So, I set my alarm for earlier today.
So I could get ready and cute, and actually do my hair. haha.
I go to school, and as soon as I walk in, it smells like gas. It was so full of gas, you could see the wavy lines of it in the air.
Needless to say, people got sick. eew.

3 are so in love-can't let go-

[09 Dec 2005|06:00pm]

enjoy yourself.
-can't let go-

[23 Nov 2005|05:46pm]
I am not such a big fan of the winter.
If I could do cool things like snowboard, then I would be excited.
But the most exciting thing that I do durring the witner is extreme snow angel making.

I made hot chocolate today again. Ice on your windshield after school makes you want to do that.

My mommy is making no bake cookies right now. That seems to be a good idea.

3 are so in love-can't let go-

[12 Nov 2005|11:15pm]
The HIM concert tonight was compleatly insane.
There was a line of people to get in about a mile long. We were in the front of it!!
I saw some friends that I onnnnnnly see at these shows, and some friends that I havent seen in a while.

We get in and its like ten minutes untill Skindred starts playing. When they do, people start moshing. Seriousley. GAY. We couldn't get Linds down to mainfloor either. It sucked. I got seperated, but with Jon and Jeremy, so I wasn't alone. Then Finch came on. They played some good songs, but they really sucked. It was a real heartbreaker. Then they went off. People just kept pushing and moshing. Jeremy decided that when people would push him, he would lay on them. It was funny. Then HIM came on, and people went crazy. They pushed so hard to the font, I thought I was dying. Jon got seperated from Jeremy and I, & I started gettin scared. He like broke a way for me kinda, and then all of a sudden two people started pushing me from the front and back at the same time and I couldnt breath, it was insane. I just screamed and screamed. Jeremy got pushed back towards me, and I was like dont let me die haha. I thought I was going to, and then I passed out. I like felt it comming too. He had his arm around me cause someone was pushing my back again, and then I just went limp and backwards. I woke up and was like holy shit. Jon got back to us and then people pushed so hard, and I started to pass out again. Jon was like you have to wake up wake up you have to wake up. It was so scary. & then everyone in front pushed back at the same time, and we fell on our asses. It was scary being on the floor with twenty people on you. I freaked out and couldnt stop screaming. Jon was like you need to get out. HA, i can hold my own. sometimes. Then some fat chick stepped on my foot and crunched it, and I told her to get the fuck off, and she didnt. So I hauled off on her fat trailer parkey ass. HAHA. oh my. It was a night.

That was honestly the scariest and best show I have ever seen. I am thankful.

"Godbless my darlings"
Ville Valo
1 are so in love-can't let go-

[06 Nov 2005|12:55am]
[ mood | thankful ]

My heart is a fuckjob.

I got the results back from that stupid monitor that I had to wear.
22 extra beats. That is alot.
My heart went from 60 to 174 beats per minute while I was sleeping for no reason. Shaheen told me that if it stayed there much longer than it did, it probablly would have went into a small cardiac arrest.
It also went way lower than its suppossed to. It went all the way down to 40 beats.
That is almost scary.

On the fifteenth I have an echocardiogram scheduled.
Thats another hour or two of topless sitting infront of doctors yielding cold medical tools.
And sticky squares of plastic and metal.

On wednesday when I went to Shaheen for my results and cold medicine, they made me do blood work too.
He thinks my thryoid glands are causing all this non-normalicy.
I cried like a baby. I have a humongous phobia of needles.
My mom said what I put myself through before he actually pokes me is more tramuatizing than any needle can ever be.
I beg to differ. Spinal taps are more traumatizing.
I would also think chest tubes would be more traumatizing.

I hope you sleep well.

-can't let go-

[30 Oct 2005|03:10pm]
I'm starting to like this spanish project thing. Lunch on sundays is muy divertida!
It also gives us an excuse to be stupid, and gossip.

I carved my pumpkin today!
Yay! Its cute.

Family stuff.
-can't let go-

[25 Oct 2005|02:28pm]
Ive noticed I am just not feeling well lately.
I just dont want to take the effort to get out of bed.

Im sick of being sick.
-can't let go-

[22 Oct 2005|11:04am]
I really enjoy hot bath's.
And chocolate, even though at this point Im not suppossed to have it.
And bubbles.
And my bed.

This is what I love today.

I am very hungry.
3 are so in love-can't let go-

[13 Oct 2005|07:58pm]
So now Im getting a halter monitor put on on Monday.
Wednesday it looks like they are still doing the echocardiogram and now blood work.

They just cant get enough of me.

and i just cant get far enough away from them.

I'm really nervous.
1 are so in love-can't let go-

[09 Oct 2005|11:37am]

Homecomming was a blast. Thank you guys. Dinner was, hectic is a nice way to put it, wonderful.

Everything was perfect. Except the whole loosing my phone thing? Yeah about that. haha.

Thank you for a wonderful time mister Rust. It was absolutley spectacular. Gracias!


So I do have a new phone now. And your going to have to give me your number. Because I'm stupid

and I dont know how to keep hold of my phone while im walking and stuff ya know.


But I hope you all had as wonderful a night as I did.



2 are so in love-can't let go-

[18 Sep 2005|10:03am]
I MOVED!!!!!!!!!
Its freekin huge!!!!!

um can you say excited times a bajillion.
-can't let go-

[10 Sep 2005|10:02pm]
I like long drives home at night
They let me think.
Something I never really have time to sit down and do.
Its really good to just do that.
Its when I get my life back in order.
-can't let go-

[08 Sep 2005|07:15pm]
So, I've noticed how super unhappy I am with some
things in my life.
But I've also decided to counteract these things and
to start thinking about good things now.

-I am not a katrina victim.
-I have a nice car, and it works perfectly.
-I have the most amazing people in my life right now that I could ever ask for.
-I will be living in my house in creek in 8 days.
-I aced my ap quizes. nuff said.

now see, everything isnt so bad.

or so i hope.

2 are so in love-can't let go-

[05 Sep 2005|09:38pm]
Went shopping for the new house today.
Mom and I got some super cute furniture for the
flex room. Its sky blue.
Got my homecomming jewlrey.
Its so pretty, drop pearl earrings with a crystal on them
& white pearl necklace with like crystal beads in the front.
Went to dinner and then did more shopping.
We really do alot of that for this stupid house dont we?

I really love fighting.
Its so fun.
Hey, I've got an idea...
Lets do it everyday.

-can't let go-

[04 Sep 2005|10:50am]
I dont like you at all.
Why dont you just stop it.
Stop talking to me.
Move out.
Leave me alone.
& Get a life.

I like the feeling of having all
my ap homework done.
It gives me a humongous sence
of accomplishment.
Thats pretty terrible, but its true.
-can't let go-

[03 Sep 2005|12:04pm]
[ mood | bored ]

So, I quit.
its really going to be much better this way.
Becides, they dont pay enough anyway.

The new house is like compleatly done.
All they need is to put in the sod, cover the
air vents, and fix like three paint chips.
Can you say house warming party. I can.

Mom brought up the big college speach again.
She thinks I should apply early decision.
But I do know where I want to go.

hey guess what, I am eating mac&cheese
and grilled cheese sandwiches.
(youu should be jelous!!)


-can't let go-

[31 Aug 2005|02:12pm]
Its only the third day and it is definatley old.
Way to go.
Only 165 days till Christmas though.
2 are so in love-can't let go-

[27 Aug 2005|09:31pm]
[ mood | content ]

i am bored.
I worked today, alllllll day. I am so quitting and finding a new job. I hate the hours, its retarded.\
I took Mario home. interesting. thats what i have to say.

-can't let go-

[27 Aug 2005|10:23am]
and tonight im getting death cab tickets toooooo!
you should call me and lets go together.
to both.
i am more than excited.
i am dying here.
-can't let go-

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